Reckless

So, I've been thinking a lot lately, which isn't a surprise. We had an amazing worship service tonight. I wish I could describe it. I was looking around, though, and I just kinda soaked it all in. I think people thought I was crazy or something because I couldn't help but smile. I'd love to go back home and share this experience with others.

The whole time I was thinking this:
1. "Lord, You are...umm...You are..." I couldn't find the words to describe God. I was at a complete loss for words, and it was absolutely amazing.
2. God take everything from me because I want to give it all to You.
3. This is what the church looks like. This is what the church does. We sang songs together; we wrote letters to our brothers and sisters that were being persecuted; we prayed with each other for each other and for the body of Christ. This is what we, the church, were created to do. To glorify God.

There was a constant flow of scriptures being read that just gave absolute glory to God. I couldn't help but smile. This was worship.

And then I thought of the ones being persecuted. All of the people we wrote letters to and prayed for. And I thought, "Lord, why isn't this happening in America? People are supposed to hate us for loving You. Why are we so comfortable?"

The very thought of being comfortable is uncomfortable for me.
I want to be reckless for God even if it gets me killed.
I want to be fearless of the world because what can people do to me?
I want to want God with everything that I am.
I want to live with Christ's love within me.

I read this verse, and it blew me away (the Bible tends do that a lot to me):

Let all that you do be done in love.
1 Corinthians 16:14

Really? Everything? It's a lot easier said than done. God, why did You have to make this so hard? Why is it so impossible? Then I remembered this verse:

And looking at them Jesus said to them, "With people this impossible, but with God all things are possible.
Matthew 19:26

And you wonder why I've fallen in love with my God who is indescribable and able to do anything. The One who can do anything is the One who is slowly becoming my everything.

I am ready to die for Him.
I am ready to be reckless.