The Wreck

So, today I got into my first car wreck. I also had to say goodbye to my first car...which was like a friend to me. Man...that car and I went through a lot together, and it was hard to say goodbye. But then I realized...hey, it's just a car. Cars are replaceable, and I don't really need a car. It's just a nice privilege.

I've started to notice how privileged we are in America. It was funny because before I even hit the car in front of me, I was thinking how I didn't really need a car. and then BAM! no more car. Funny how God works sometimes, right?

(It does put a cramp into my summer plans, though. Yeah, I was thinking about not working and just traveling around serving different places. It would have been awesome. Finding places to just join in serving people and God. I was going to go visit my brother down at the beach. Maybe travel up to Ohio to visit some friends and family. Even try for Connecticut to see my other sister. I was going to go to visit friends from school where they worked. But I guess that's not in the plans. I'm cool with that.)

Anyway after that side note...yeah, we're really privileged. So, I'm fine with not having a car. My parents might get me a bike (which would be awesome, beneficial for my health, and good for the environment).

God's really been teaching me about putting my focus on the eternal instead of the temporal. A car is temporary...a person is not. We get so caught up in stuff that we think we need to have. What is that compared to Christ? What is all of the extraneous accessories compared to knowing God? I'm ready to give up everything for Him if He asks me to. I know a lot of people say that, but I really mean it. And God took something away from me that I took for granted to show me that it is temporary.

Even after talking to some of my good friends at school, I realize how much I want to be in God's presence. I'm happy to be alive still, but I can understand when Paul says that it he is "hard pressed from both directions, having the desire to depart and be with Christ, for that is much better; yet to remain on in the flesh is more necessary for your sake." (Phil 1:23-24) It is a struggle, realizing that I want to finish college, grow up, get married, have a family, etc. I want that so much, but I don't think I'm as afraid of running out of time anymore because it's all God's anyways.

I listen to one of my friends, and she said that she can't wait until she's in front of God, worshiping Him. Like...if she died now...she would be fine. I love this statement that she said: "People think that we'll be looking down once we die. But me...I'll be looking up at my Savior, praising Him!"