Never Take Friendship Personal

I love that song by Anberlin. Never Take Friendship Personal.

And maybe that's how I am. Keep your distance. Don't get close to anybody in case they choose to walk out of your life. Keep your pride intact. Don't let anybody see you break down. Keep your walls high and strong.

But I've realized when it comes to people, that's not possible. There will always be people that become part of your walls. They become a part of who you are in a way. I know it sounds ridiculously corny, but think about it. They become a vital part of who you are...your support. And when they decide to leave, part of your walls break. And when those walls break, it hurts, and you're left vulnerable.

Friendships are personal.

People are personal.

Loving people means being personal with them. Taking friendships personally.

It's probably obvious, but I've never been good at making a lot of friends. And yes, loneliness does slink in and rear its ugly head in my face every once in a while. And I'll admit to being a prideful person, and I think too highly of myself (something God is chipping away at...but that's another story). So, I'm easily frustrated with people at times.

And honestly, I'm not sure why I'm writing this all out, but my pride has been wounded today. I'm a bit bitter and annoyed and mad with a friend. I guess this is a confession: sometimes I take friendship too personally.